I'm not having a new life

Well... first I was really nervious just to think in the possibility (Likke Ly) that someone was living inside, I could not sleep well, I could not eat well, even that thick thing wasn't going out thanx to the fact that I had no idea of what it was going on or why it was changing that fast.

At the end, my best friend was there to be happy or sad for the news, we are happy!! Yes we are, but that definetly made me think in everything that could have been wrong, all the things that I could have left because of it.

I totally understand now why those things happen and why people remain with the thoughts or the dying wishes... now I understand